IF I WERE YOU

If I were you
I wouldn't hurt the ones you love the way you do
I wouldn't make them cry

If I were you
I would learn to see the other point of view
You don't even try

Let's say that you were me
we'd do things differrently
cut out all the fear and lies

Then maybe you could see
the possibility
to compromise

If I were you
I would look at all the quarreling we do
cause that's not help at all

If I were you
I would give a little credit when it's due
That would be my call

Let's say that you were me
we'd do things differrently
cut out all the hurt and pain

Then maybe you could see
the possibility
to love again

If I had the choice
You would make yourself heard
without raising your voice

In my master plan
You could get your own way
Without raising your hand

If I were you
I wouldn't hurt the ones you love the way you do
I wouldn't make them cry

If I were you
I would learn to see the other point of view
But you don't even try

If I were you


(Mike and The Mechanic-Rewired,2004)

A DAY TO REFLECT

I cannot blame anybody for what is happening to me, especially Allah, The Almighty who makes this to happen. I got to reflect to what I’ve done in the past which I believe will possibly be the biggest reason for what I get.

Somebody had hurt me so deeply that I can’t stop my tears from coming down my cheeks. I don’t know what to say to that person to explain the misery that person has caused me. I never thought that anybody would treat me that way.
I do nothing extraordinary for this person. That person owes me nothing in return. I shouldn’t have felt this way. But I can’t. It hurts…
I always want to be nice to everybody, be helpful, be friendly, be useful, and be kind… Everybody in my world will mean EVERYBODY!!! My friends, colleagues, students, relatives, neighbors, My Children’s friends, their teachers, my students’ parents, people I meet on the way to work, People I meet in the office building, security, janitors, cleaning service, I really mean everybody guys!!

In my thirty-three years of life in this world, nothing can break my heart better than being treated like this by those people I mentioned above. Really, this is the best, again, THE BEST way to break my heart, hurt my pride.
I’m sorry for being sooooo desperate in this writing of mine, can’t help it!
I care about you guys a lot! try my very best to help you guys whenever I can.. But LOOK!! What YOU have done to me????
Sorry guys L I think I need to stop writing before I blow my head.

And before I really end this, let me say my prayer:
Dear Allah,
You know how much I’ve been hurt today, please forgive that person, and please forgive me for being so angry with that person. Show us the best solution, and please help me to manage my heart.
I really want to send my worst prayer for that person, because I know you would listen to me… but I won’t. Thank you Allah for reminding me.
Make that person a better person, make that person learn something new everyday, and do take care of that person, so that that person will never hurt anybody else as much as that person hurt me. Amiiin.

BE GRATEFUL

Be grateful, with what Allah has given you

because we're the luckiest creature of all,

who are granted by brain, feelings, and talents.

Be grateful for what you have achieved so far,

eventhough you realize deep in your heart

that you can do much much better than that.

Be grateful for those recognition you've gotten from

your colleagues, friends, and family.

Eventhough you felt that you've done nothing extraordinary.

Learn to appreciate your surroundings

by showing good attitude to them.

One of the most difficult things to do to be a grateful creature,

is to appreciate yourself.

You have the right to be appreciated by yourself!

To Want What We Have

Ada 2 hal yang saya yakini sebagai hal yang paling pandai saya lakukan.
Hal yang pertama paling pandai saya lakukan adalah mengeluh.
Berkeluh kesah mengenai hampir segala hal yang kita dapat dan alami setiap hari, mengeluhkan kegundahan hati, mengeluhkan perlakuan orang lain yang kita terima setiap hari dan mengeluhkan hal-hal kecil yang sebenarnya masih bisa kita abaikan.
Saya, adalah makhluk pengeluh no.1 di dunia saya..
Mengeluh adalah hal paling hebat saya lakukan setiap hari.
Ya Allah, berikanlah saya kemampuan untuk bersyukur padaMu, dan berikanlah saya kemampuan untuk menghindari mengeluh.

Hal yang kedua adalah menginginkan sesuatu yang tidak kita punyai.
Sungguh menyenangkan rasanya bila.... punya rumah seperti yang dimiliki A. Enak kali ya punya suami yang seperti B. (maaf ya bi ...) Gimana ya rasanya kalo punya penghasilan berbelas-belas juta atau berpuluh-puluh juta tiap bulan... bisa jalan setiap minggu sama anak-anak kemana kita mau, beli buku yang kita mau, sekolah lagi, beli baju, ke spa, nonton, shopping......
Ah... cape..

Seandainya saja sebagian besar manusia punya kemampuan untuk menginginkan apa yang sudah dia punyai, sungguh indah dunia.
Saya yakin, semua manusia memiliki keinginan untuk memiliki apa yang dia tidak punya..
dan memerlukan jiwa yang besar dan keberanian yang amat besar untuk mampu menginginkan apa yang sudah kita punya.
Ya Allah,.. berikanlah kami kemampuan untuk menginginkan apa yang sudah kami punya sehingga kami tidak akan iri kepada teman-teman kami yang memiliki apa yang kami tidak miliki,
dan jagalah kami agar tidak terjerumus kedalam hal-hal buruk karena didorong oleh keinginan kamiuntuk memiliki apa yang kami tidak punya.

God, grant me ability to want what I have!!


May 5 2009
When I start to want something I don't have.